In real life, I am a boy. In my dream I was a beautiful and cruel mother with ankle length braided hair, black and silky. I am beautiful, but not like her. She is perfection My daughter is adopted. There is no father. She is small and delicate, velvet red lips and golden hair and skin like ivory. She is a prodigy in every way. I have made sure that she is. She knows fine literature by heart, she is a trained classical musician. She paints religious art like the greats in oil on canvas. I give her the best of everything. I love her more than myself. I wish I was her. I improve her at all costs. She is my art project. I will become her when I die.
Dreams often reflect our inner thoughts, feelings, and experiences, and your dream presents several interesting themes and symbols worth exploring.
Motherhood and Nurturing: Your portrayal as a beautiful and cruel mother might signify a complex relationship with nurturing, creativity, and control. The fact that you are a mother in the dream, despite being a boy in real life, could indicate a desire to express nurturing qualities or explore the concept of motherhood.
Perfectionism and Identity: The mother figure's beauty and perfection might represent an ideal or a standard you feel pressured to meet, either in your own life or in your aspirations. The beauty and excellence of your adopted daughter could symbolize your desires or dreams that you feel you are not living up to, or perhaps aspects of yourself that you admire and want to emulate.
Adoption and Creation: Your daughter being adopted could imply a sense of wanting to create or nurture something that is entirely your own, perhaps in a creative or personal sense. It suggests a longing for a connection that is deeply fulfilling and intimate, even if it is not biological.
Projection of Self: You wishing to be your daughter and seeing her as your art project may indicate feelings of inadequacy or ambitions you have yet to fulfill. It might also suggest a merging of identities, where you are deeply invested in someone else's potential and achievements to the point of losing your own individuality.
Control and Cruelty: The aspect of cruelty could highlight the potential dangers of perfectionism and the pressure that can come with expectations. It suggests a struggle within yourself about how much control you should have over someone else’s development and the fine line between nurturing and obsession.
Overall, this dream seems to reflect a deep exploration of creativity, aspiration, identity, and the complexity of nurturing relationships. It invites you to consider where you stand in relation to your own desires, ambitions, and the balance of supporting others while also attending to your authentic self.